the grayness of everything

i don't know why... but i'm so sad lately. hindi ko na nga maintindihan sarili ko. just the though of writing this blog makes me cry.... i guess madami nga lang talagang unsolved issues sa buhay ko right now and its catching up on me... i feel so weepy all the time... tapos pagod pa from school. sakit na nga ng mata ko eh... hindi naman ako pwedeng matulog nalang palagi kasi i have to study for my tests.... ewan ko ba naman kasi anong meron at yung mga teachers ko eh yung mga mahihirap pa eh...

i feel that there is something uncertain in my life... i feel something is lacking but i don't know what. parang meron akong hinihintay pero wala naman. i feel empty but i don't know why.... parang lahat nalang andun sa gray area na hindi ko maresolve. im so confised about everything... i want to sleep but i can't....have lots of things to do....

hopefully, this phase in my life will end soon. can't take more of it. i think i'll get mad or something